Why has Rodolfo gone Silent....Indefinitely!

Did a bee sting my tongue? Was I shouting recklessly at an all night concert? Have I chosen a monastic path, and will be secluded in the high mountain caves?

No...well the bee thing could happen, but I'd just have a lisp, not go silent. Actually the reasons for my silence aren't quite clear to even me. I just know that even before I came to Bali, it was on my mind. And for almost 5 months now (living and loving Bali) the thought has come up, tickled the forefront of my consciousness and beckoned me to begin.

And so, today on July 29th, 2010, I am going silent for an indefinite period of time. During this time, my monkey mannerisms will most likely be heightened - in other words I will communicate via gestures, written word, online chat, etc. It's important to note that my going into silence is not a move into isolation, but rather is a move toward greater presence while communicating.

There will be one exception to my silence. When I am teaching workshops/classes will be the only time that I speak out loud. So, if you miss my voice, feel free to come join a class.

I invite you all to share your thoughts, comments, and experiences of silence with me. Just comment below. Maybe give a guess as to what benefits will come from my silence (inner peace, quiet environment, better listening, psychic powers beyond this world)

A silent bow to all of you, as I embark on this journey inward.

Namaste (thank you),

Rodolfo - Authenticity Muse & Holistic Escort

www.totalauthenticity.com

Discovery of Love

He said,”it was like feeling a dark cloud had suddenly come over the skies.”

My friend was right, for when my heart closed it was not just my love I stopped sharing, it was also the ability to feel love and that felt like a shadow looming over us. We can create amazing beauty or we can create devastating destruction – and it has everything to do with how open our heart is to recognize love; not receive it, not give it, but to simply recognize it within ourselves and within others.

It began to rain today. And I know my heart is not fully open. And yet, I feel confident it is opening deeper than it has before. I discovered something about myself recently, something hidden so deep it could not be found by thought or meditation, but rather it took the deep angst of heartache to bring to the surface.

Manuela and I, after more than a year of deep growth and connection, have separated. And although the break up is not a mutual consent (I asked for it), we are agreed upon the intention –it is for the discovery of love.

I saw her a day after we parted at a gathering of mutual friends, and I sat with her to tell her I was scared. That I was scared because I realized that she was supported, and so was I, but for some reason I was choosing to deny that support. I was choosing to punish myself for not having “loved” her as I felt I should have. And all the while, she just kept offering her love, she just wanted to hold me, and I kept denying it...and what scared me was the realization that I believed I was not deserving of that Love. In some dark place within, I didn’t believe I deserved to be loved.

When you decide to drop the blame and judgments, and really look at what is being triggered within, you find deep hidden secrets that you’ve been telling yourself. Places of shadow where you have not dared to look, because you have assumed they are unfixable, unhealthy, un-lovable.

And when I brought light into that place of darkness, I began to see things. I began to realize my fears were ungrounded and imaginary. I began to embrace that I am not worth loving, nor am I worth loving, but rather I am LOVE. I came to see, that beneath the facade with which we interact in public, and beneath the cloud of doubts, fears, and mistrust, there is an essence – formless, unconditioned, and complete – and here in the Beginners Heart, I am Love.
When I looked back to Manuela, into her eyes, I saw that same place in her; one of endless beauty, power, and absolute acceptance. I saw the Love within her. And I realized I could not give her love, she could not give me love, but rather we could be the love within ourselves and from that place we could touch and hold each other deeply.

...This lasted for 2 days.

There is a mold within many relationships that we often do not see. The spores are small but spread quickly, and they are called attachment. The mold is composed of fears, doubts, and mistrust...it is the cloud that covers our true heart and true connection.

And like rebellious children who take antibiotics only until the symptoms have ceased, and not for the duration of the prescription – Manuela and I had stayed apart only for the time until we felt the fears and emotions had been cleared. But the prescription offered to us was for longer, and so when we believed the mold was clear, the attachments gone, it was just too small to see. And within two days, it grew back with vengeance, and what was an idyllic love turned quickly again to triggers, blames, and disappointments.

Manuela and I are now separate again, and letting go more and more. And it is raining. I know I am not fully in the place of my deepest heart yet, where I feel Love. The rain clouds are a sign of this and the intention remains to discover Love, the love within.

I will admit, the path is not well lit, and each footstep requires trust. I see my intention, this Vision of Love, as a lantern though. And I know that I am on the right path, because I can feel the fears and doubts creeping up from all sides attempting to knock the lantern from my hands. And just past all of them is that place of purity I found once. And maybe it will rain for awhile, but in the end the skies always clear, and the rain will have washed away the doubts and fears.
Then, from that place of clarity, of light, we can discover Love again. Not with each other, but with ourselves. And when you can love yourself fully, when you can fill your entirety with light and acceptance...no mold can grow there. And no clouds can block the Love we are.

Stepping One Foot At a Time,

Rodolfo

Epic Breathing - A Whole New Level of Inspiration

I Accidently Broke My Finger at one Event, then Healed it 2 weeks later at the Next Event

If I had any reservations about the power of Qigong and Breath, they were completely dissolved by this experience. A few weeks ago, I broke my right index finger at the third metacarpal. It happened after a Qigong event in Charlotte, as we were taking down all the decorations and setup. We had made a large ball of electrical tape and were tossing it around like a football. Let me tell you, electrical tape is much heavier than a regular football.

Well, on a spectucular one handed catch, my finger jammed, and according to the medical physicians and x-rays, it caused a tendon to pull too tight resulting in the bone chipping. A bit painful, I will admit.

So, two weeks later, I was at another event, this time in Tucson (these Qigong events happen all around the continental USA), and on day three, Miracle Monday as we call it, I joined hands with the other 300+ attendees as we began our 9-breath Prayer circle, a sacred moment in each event where we send our thoughts and energy to our loved ones, the world, and to ourselves. We began to breathe...

And with each progressive set of 9-Breath Method (which you can learn in my Epic Breath Workshop) I felt myself getting more and more energized, clear, and then suddenly my perception of being a body, became a perception of being in my body. And the focus of that perception was on my right index finger, which at this point felt like it was on fire. I kept breathing....

When we completed all the 9-Breath sets, and we released hands, I slowly brought my hand up, removed the brace that I'd been wearing, and carefully started to bend my finger. Then curl it a little more, and a little more...until I'd moved it through it's full range of motion. The pain was gone!

I started opening and closing it rapidly...I had effectively reversed the tissue damage and trauma...my finger was free of pain!

The bone is still healing and setting itself (as follow-up x-rays revealed), and now the circulation and ability for my body to heal faster has been accelerated since my nervous system doesn't have the area on trauma lock down anymore. I'm still wearing a flexible brace just to be sure the bone sets correctly - but as far as my hands ability to function fully- It's an Instantaneous Healing!

After this miraculous event, I began incorporating the Epic Breath Techniques into the AlmaFlow Sessions I was giving clients, and found that the same healing power that had fixed my broken finger was accelerating the healing process for joint, bone, and tissue damage, as well as multiplying the effects of the normal AlmaFlow Session. And with each session, the energy got stronger!