So I've entered my 30's. I still enjoy oatmeal every morning with a sprinkling of goji berries. I still enjoy bringing my hands to heart center each morning to thank the Universe for another day. I still enjoy knowing I don't have a car, and that I get to enjoy the feeling of the wind when I use my bicycle to get around. I still enjoy sitting down and listening to a friend when they need to be heard. I still enjoy writing about my experiences and insights. I still enjoy reading about the experiences and insights of others.
What's new?
I'm really enjoying the soft cushy slippers I decided to spoil myself with while walking around inside the house. I'm enjoying my oatmeal even more each morning, because it's often made by the love in my life - Manuela, my girlfriend. I'm enjoying my long hair which is now growing back after I completely shaved it off two years ago (it's already back to my shoulders!). I'm enjoying the clarity I have about what it means to me to Give. And, I'm enjoying the clarity that is emerging about what it means to Recieve.
I spent the day yesterday, working at my favorite Thai Restaurant - Kafe Yen. I haven't worked in the food industry in over 15 years, and never really as a waiter - but there I was for the busy lunch hour bussing tables, taking orders, pouring water, and greeting customers. It was Great!
And occasionally, I would play with the notion of how I'd feel if I was there, actually employed, and doing the work because I was being paid. My enthusiasm waned, I started getting frustrated at the low tips people left, I felt entitled to more gratitude, and I watched the customers feeling entitled to better service.
Then I'd remember I was there by choice, not "work". That I was there to Give, not Get - and my smile returned, the customers left big tips, and the great food was enjoyed.
And the insights and joyful experiences of 30 years crystallized into one beautiful statement - I love giving before it can be taken.
If I'm "working" because of what I get in the end, then in reality I'm taking. If my clients are expecting a certain service based on what they've paid for, then they too are taking.
Thus, to Give Before it Can Be Taken means I consciously choose to give 110% of me in each situation, above and beyond the expectation of what others might be trying to take. For it can only be seen as "taking" if I'm not willing to give it. And it feels great to Give!
And it seems, by some natural law of equanimity, that when I give in this way - I am rewarded in double, triple, quadruple form. It may not come from the same place I've given to, it may not come at the same time...but inevitably even just the satisfaction and joy of giving has lifted my spirit up double it's original form.
So how do I get to Give freely without the constraining stress of survival?
I imagine there are many answers to this question. Some fall into the genre of shifting my thoughts to see and feel abundance at all times - that can work, but isn't the easiest when my reality may not be showing abundance, and I don't recommend inauthentic affirmations.
I can seek what is abundant in my life and focus on that, thus assisting in the shift in thought - but that may still leave the bills unpaid.
I can develop absolute trust that the Universe will take care of me if I surrender to the flow. I'll admit that does work. Yet, it can be tough when you sometimes don't realize when you are swimming against the flow.
My favorite method of finding how to Give freely without stress - discover what your passionate about, choose to be somewhere you can practice it, and allow the life circumstances to simplify around it.
For me this looks like:
* I am passionate about holding space to guide "escort" others toward the beauty within them.
* I choose to be in a place with abundant spirituality, community, and green vegetation.
* Rather than paying the price of first months rent and deposit, I make life simpler by using the same money to pay for a flight to Bali, and 2-3 months housing (in paradise).
My friends, I am living in Bali, thriving in Bali, and sharing love in Bali. Our passions are not things to fantasize about, they are things to reach out, run ahead, and grab. Ask yourself the question daily, "Am I living the life I've always wanted?" - and if the answer is no, then I softly suggest you consider that your life is your life...choose to live it fully in every moment; filled to the brim with inspiration.
Much love and gratitude to you all,
Rodolfo
Authenticity Muse & Holistic Escort
http://www.holisticescort.com/
You made my heart smile, again : )
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